Feeling Down!

Last night I put Olivia in the bathtub and she loves it so obviously didn't want to get out. So when I pulled her out by one arm not under the armpit I here two pops and then my daughter started screaming. I yelled for dave and because I was sure I popped her arm out of socket I was scared but her arm wasn't just laying there and she was holding her wrist where I pulled her out. I was freaking out and started driving to the ER. I didn't want to go to the ER since we have been there a million times this month and it may look like I am abusive. So livy was totally happy she just wouldn't let us touch her arm. When we got there we sat in the parking lot trying to decide if we should go and with some phone calls we made to other people we decided to opt out and just see how she does through the night and just get her ice cream which she was totally excited about.

So then there is me. I felt so bad I couldn't believe I did that and should know better but it has been hard for me now to bend down and pick her up and was being lazy. I got home and just bawled because dave and I weren't agreeing upon stuff, I hurt my daughter, my hormones are so out of whack, and I blamed it all on me. I got in the tub and sobbed and sobbed. Dave came in feeling really bad and told me things like this happen don't blame yourself. He also apologized that we were getting mad at each other about the situation and tried to make me feel better. I must say he got me to stop crying but this morning even when I wake up livy and she is using that arm now like nothing happened I still feel horrible and just want to cry that I almost accidentally hurt her. I don't like being a mom right now to many emotions and I love her so much I want nothing bad to harm her. God reassured me and let me know everything will be okay last night but it doesn't make me feel like a bad mom today.

Some San Diego Pictures

Spiders

So our poor daughter in the past three weeks has been bitten by two spiders. I hate spiders and I am so scared of them. The first time we had to take her to the ER because her hand swole up so bad and you can still see where that disgusting spider bit her. The doctor did not help me with telling us how disgusting the spiders mouth is and how much bacteria is in it. It gives me the shivers everytime I think about it. She then ends up getting antibiotics to take by mouth and then the next day went to our doctor and got two shots of an antibiotic in both thighs at the same time. Then today she wakes up from her nap and low and behold her ankle is all swolen up and is blistering just like the other did and she limps wherever she goes. We still have some antibiotic left so we started giving it to her again and benadryl for the swelling to go down. My poor baby but she is such a trooper. So Dave and I spent the afternoon swarming our apartment with spray and cleaning everything out. If we didn't catch the spider by now I have no idea where it was at. We found one in the window in the living room that was pretty big but I don't know if it is poisnous or not who can tell. All I know is insects and arachnids like my daughter to much and I hate them all. I had to suck up my fear though and kill whatever spider I could find for my daughter (dave was really the ones to kill them) which in the end we only found one small one and one pretty good size one. We hope that was it but man they do a lot of damage to you and stress me out that it will get into her blood. I always wonder why god had to make those horrible things.

We got our date

Dave just got his OTS date for Sept. 14 Which means he is on his way to Alabama as am I. My brother and sister in law are letting me stay with them so I can have the baby there and dave will most likely be able to see the birth which will be good. Let's just hope my health will stay good until then and no complications so I can go out there. He will Graduate Dec 16 and then be on our way to move to Pensacola, FL. I can't wait to be back by the ocean I love it.

So an update on Olivia she likes to copy Daddy and I's every move. Whatever we do she will do. It is cute but gets annoying at times but she is learning and that is what I love. She loves to go swimming. Yesterday her and I went in the pool and she is not afraid to jump in the pool even if it is in a dangerous area by the steps and then she counts 1,2, 3 and I dunk her under the water. She loves it. She tells us all the time when she is peeing and poohing so I am guessing she is showing signs of potty training but I have no idea. I want to buy a little toilet soon and see if she will go but when I put her on the big potty. All she does is say pee pee and then makes the sound pssssss as if she is peeing. So she has no clue how to do it. Maybe I'll rent some potty training movies from the library and see if that helps her. She is such a joy and makes me smile all the time.

A Tentative Date

So Dave got an email yesterday getting a tentative date for Officer Training School for Sept. We were excited to finally start making some decisions. Our family has been so great at supporting us and the decisions we are about to make. We have had to make decisions where my family is going to be helping us out a lot with this baby coming in September. I feel truly special to have them in my life. So the recrutier said most likely the tentative date will be a for sure in about a month but hey it was something. It was so crazy too because this week I have been so down on myself because of not having enough patience and faith that this was going to happen that I was just about to give up until I prayed and told him I give up and he told me just look at it as if it isn't going to happen right now but I promise it will eventually. So as I was driving to work yesterday a thought came across my mind that we were going to find out something today and lo an behold we did. God knows us so well and it will be very humbling during the three months we will be apart that I know he will always be there for me. We have some plans for baby #2 to come but waiting until they are for sure and the tenative thing is taken away. For now figuring out insurance with me losing my job the end of may I have to go on Dave's insurance which isn't as good as mine but I should be glad I have something. We could still end up having the baby when Dave is on tricare and then end up paying $14 dollars for this little guy. That is what is awesome about the military their insurance. I hope that works out but we will see. Being a grown up sucks sometimes.

Guess what it is!

We are having a b0y! So excited I gave Dave a high five when we found out. We all know it would end up being his fault if it wasn't a boy so he did a good job. So if you have anything to tell me about raising a baby boy let me know and all hand me downs I will take gladly.

Visitors

In an effort to keep our blog more up to date I thought I would write a little bit. I also am at work again and have nothing else to do, so why not. That is also the reason there are no pictures, though we should get some up this week as we had a lovely photographer take some during our adventures this week.

Livy and Amanda have both been a little sick recently. It started in the little one and carried into mommy who is getting the worst of it, hopefully, right now. With Amanda being pregnant it just makes everything worse, but she is a great sport about everything so she is fighting through.

We have been lucky to have my littlest sister Natalie come and visit this week. It has been fun having some company for a change, and Livy loves the new playmate. We are not the most exciting hosts and have mostly spent time watching movies and such. My work schedule also causes me to sleep through the day most of the time, so that hurts things too.

We did have a lot of fun on Saturday though as we went to the Dr Pepper Museum in Waco. Natalie is a big fan, and we enjoy it too so we though it would be fun. It was created in Waco, and it was kind of fun to walk through the original store and learn a little about it. I had no idea that it is actually the oldest of the major sodas beating Coke by a year, and Pepsi by 12.

The highlight of the trip came at the end when we purchased Dr Pepper floats made fresh from the soda fountain. Now if you have never had one where they put syrup in the cup and add the carbonated water, let me tell you, you are missing out. They also have a special type of Dr Pepper as it is made with pure cane sugar instead of high fructose corn syrup. Besides it being more healthy it makes an already fabulous beverage absolutely amazing. Natalie referred to it as the necter of the Gods. We bought a few bottles and cans of the special recipe to take home, as well as Dr Pepper BBQ sauce and A&W BBQ sauce. The Dr Pepper sauce is amazing, and we have yet to try the A&W.

We will be sad to see Nat go on Wednesday, but she will be followed by my other little sister Mary on Friday. It is so fun to have other people come and visit. It is especially good for Amanda as I spend most of the time that she is home asleep. Hopefully we will get word from the Air Force soon and we can move on from this wretched schedule.